I woke up in such a weird mood. I wanted to talk to my ex because she was the only this I cared about at this time. She didn’t respond for quite a while and my mood went really low and then we talked and I got sad and angry. Cause I’m an idiot for loving her. I spent the day walking around and crying. or fantasizing killing people. I want to get bipolar meds finally because I felt like I was gonna do something really bad today. Either to myself or someone else. It actually scared me..